Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I don't know if I can do this anymore. I really, really don't know anymore. I'm so unsure of myself, I doubt almost every note I play. And it hurts so much. It just does. I'm so sorry, but apologizing seems so pathetic. I don't know if I really have it in me to stay strong till the end. I hope I do, but the truth is, I don't have much hope of myself anymore nowadays.
You have no idea how hard it is, and there you are making everything a whole lot worse.